Hear my prayer, O LORD,
Give ear to my supplications!
In Your faithfulness answer me,
And in Your righteousness.
Do not enter into judgment with Your servant,
For in Your sight no one living is righteous.
For the enemy has persecuted my soul;
He has crushed my life to the ground;
He has made me dwell in darkness,
Like those who have long been dead.
Therefore my spirit is overwhelmed within me;
My heart within me is distressed.
I remember the days of old;
I meditate on all Your works;
I muse on the work of Your hands.
I spread out my hands to You;
My soul longs for You like a thirsty land. Selah
Answer me speedily, O LORD;
My spirit fails!
Do not hide Your face from me,
Lest I be like those who go down into the pit.
Cause me to hear Your lovingkindness in the morning,
For in You do I trust;
Cause me to know the way in which I should walk,
For I lift up my soul to You.
Deliver me, O LORD, from my enemies;
In You I take shelter.
Teach me to do Your will,
For You are my God;
Your Spirit is good.
Lead me in the land of uprightness.
Revive me, O LORD, for Your name’s sake!
For Your righteousness’ sake bring my soul out of trouble.
In Your mercy cut off my enemies,
And destroy all those who afflict my soul;
For I am Your servant. (Psalm 143, New King James Version)
I came across these verses one Sunday morning and they really struck me. I know that I should have been paying attention to the message and really I was. But you know sometimes how you are flipping through your pages while listening? Well, thats what I was doing and it just happened to open to Psalm 143 and I took a moment to read it. I really wasn’t planning on reading the whole thing, just a little bit. But the more I read the more I wanted to read.
I am not sure what David was going through when he wrote this Psalm and I am not sure that it really matters. I think that from reading through it you get that he was struggling. Isn’t that something we can all relate too? I know that I certainly can. Seems like some days I struggle with a lot of things, my attitude, my quiet time, my thoughts, my prayers, my kids, my husband, other relatives. You name it and it has been a struggle.
Something that I have really been struggling with a lot in the past couple of months is kind of two-fold. I am almost certain that if I could get the one in check and not struggle with it as much, then the other (and pretty much everything else) would fall into place too. I am really struggling with who I am and what my role is right now. And I am really, really struggling with my time spent with the Lord. I know I need to meet with him daily and sometimes even hourly but to be quite honest with you I am not even doing it on a weekly basis. Its not that I don’t have time or know that I need it, I just don’t do it! How sad is that? Pretty sad if you ask me. And I know that if I would just get this one thing, this thing that seems so small but is in fact huge, in to its rightful and prominent place in my life and keep it there then all others things would fall into place. And if they didn’t, it wouldn’t matter because I would be so focused on the One that does matter nothing else would seem that important.