(This post was first written on 9/25/08 but was never published until now. I probably still feel this way a little bit but it is not related to anything that has happened in my current church. I know I may have some readers from the church and I want to make that clear.)

Below this post you will find some lyrics to a song that I really like and that I relate to very well.  I also think that I am not the only one that battles with this or feels this way a lot of times. And I wonder why so many people struggle with this.  Isn’t church supposed to be a place we can go and be safe?  A place we can go and openly admit our struggles and sin and find encouragment and love, not condemnation and judgement?  Why are we afraid to really share our struggles with our brothers and sisters in Christ?  

“Stained Glass Masquerade”

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they’ll soon discover
That I don’t belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything’s okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I’ll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who’s been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who’s traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay


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